Update

6 weeks (God willing) and we'll have a new little person to welcome in our family. I went to the doctor on Friday and Deborah weighs (this is an estimate) 5 lbs 3 oz and she is healthy.

I'm starting to get to the uncomfortable stage and wonder if I'll survive the next month but having Bekah talk to me has helped so much. She really made me feel better this weekend about things.

The April 15th deadline is now past us so this next month work for me will be getting as much done as possible before I go on maternity leave.

Ryan has now begun working Saturdays but hopefully they'll get caught up quickly and that can stop. I don't like it when he works weekends that's our time together!!

We've got the house as finished as it's going to be for a while and are now enjoying it immensely!

Bekah and Joseph came down this weekend along with Nathan and Katie, and Granny, Paula and Rachel came on Saturday. It was so much fun getting to see everyone and spending time with family. It's such a bittersweet thing because now all I want to do is move back to Lubbock, but it will pass.

Bekah is such a wonderful mom and Joseph is so happy and well adjusted. He just talks and laughs and loves to cuddle. Deborah and baby boy got to meet telepathically through Bekah and I's stomach. They seemed to like each other which is good. Joseph likes to pat Bekah's belly and this morning I put him in bed with Ryan and I and he just patted Deborah. So we have the makings of cousins who love each other :) I can't even believe I'm typing this, cousins, it seems like yesterday Bekah and I were living together in Lubbock going to school and here we are married and pregnant at the same time! It's fun to be at this phase though, it felt right to go shopping together for our kids clothes.

Thoughts

God has been teaching me a lot these past weeks. It seems like the theme has been allowing the Holy Spirit to really live in me and allowing God to write my story. It's so interesting how your life seems so different when you are right with God. I've always believed in God, and really never doubted Christ and the cross and what that means for and to me personally. However, it just seems like I'm more aware of these things now.

As a soon to be parent it is so important to me to pass this on to my daughter. She is special, God uniquely created her and placed her with us to raise and nurture. My prayer is that she will know Christ and know the love that God has for her. Ultimately, that is where (especially as women) we get our security from. God has given Ryan and I a huge responsibility. As her birth draws closer and closer my prayer is that through Him we will be able to give her the foundation she needs to come to know God and to understand how much He loves her and to share the love that we have for God with her.

I know this is kind of a scattered blog but I can't quite put into words what is going on but felt the need to. So I apologize if it doesn't make sense.