Sickness and other issues

So I'm sick. I hate being sick and I'm as bad as a man as far as the whininess factor is concerned. Also, I'm almost done as a contractor and back to the office. It's not going to be the same though because my two friends aren't there. I think I'm just tired and run down. I had my bachelorrette (spelling?) party this weekend and we had such a good time just having a girls weekend. It was nice to get away! Heidi had her baby girl Hope Marie and posted pictures. I can't wait to see her, she is adorable with that head of hair and face. It makes me want a baby (shh don't tell Ryan). Although, as he would say one step at a time Leah we're not even married yet! So it's a lot like Christmas around here in some ways because the UPS guy comes it seems like every day with a package for us. I love opening them!! See below for some pictures of my shower in Borger that was absolutely just wonderful!!

Weddings

So I love to read other peoples blogs (even those people I don't know) and I think it would be fun to blog so I'm going to give it a try. I have been planning a wedding for almost the past year and it's coming up in 60 days! As the day draws closer it's so easy to get consumed with all the details and the actual day rather than focusing on the meaning of a wedding and the emotions that come along with it. I know that giving up my last name is going to be hard. I'm independent and I like being a Purswell. I feel like there is no time to grieve that or deal with the emotions that go along with becoming an Oliver. Also, just the huge committment that marriage is. I know Ryan is who I want to marry and who God has picked out for me but it's almost like we can't enjoy that knowledge because of all the small wedding details. I guess in the next 60 days I will do my best in between showers and planning to try and become as emotionally prepared as possible!